today marks my last day
of working full-time
for a little while,
as motherhood moves closer and closer,
redirecting my focus and energy
toward this tiny being.
today was full and long and astoundingly normal
and just as fulfilling as all the other days
I’ve spent with this team so far.
I’ve had other days, truly,
of dreading work and routines and even colleagues,
but that’s not the case now and here and
with the things we do together every day;
in fact, the tears I cried then
were ones of feeling out of place
and lacking purpose.
now, I get to do meaningful work
with people who care
in places that matter
during loaded and dynamic times.
and so as we leave the yard today,
as I drive home for the last time for a while,
and as I try to let go momentarily
of the sensationally important working skin of mine,
may this be my reminder
of what a blessing it’s been
to make a living and a life,
to stewart alongside colleagues and friends,
to dream big and act accordingly,
to grow and stretch on the inside
each and every day.
so when it’s time to return
and new skins will have grown on me,
may it all rain down yet again
and sweep me off my feet
and whisk me out into this world
that needs for all of us to show up
and change the things we can